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I often wonder if there is ever a time where you can be too organized. I'm not sure the answer, but I do know I can't seem to stay organized because I keep changing my organizing pattern. I think I have a problem with just letting my systems be.
I'm beginning to wonder if the reason I can't seem to finish anything is because I spend too much time taking it from table "A" and moving it to table "B" and sometimes even back again. This is the case for so many things: recipe books, my writing ideas, my story details, my homeschool record keeping and even my own daily writing routine notes. I keep changing my methods so I never feel stable in my system.
I'm sure there is some sort of psychoanalytical conclusion you could draw from that. Some underlying factor that will inevitably have to do with anxiety or OCD or perhaps simply not being able to let myself be.
The real pickle is, I don't know what to do about this one. Before I can even get settled, I think of a better way to keep something. The only thing is, then I don't get much done because instead of working the problem forward I am just spending my time spinning around in circles. I wonder why a hamster does it? Is it just for exercise? Is it peaceful somehow? Is it some quest for natural survival?
Okay, I may be looking a little too much into this. Still, I like to look at my habits and try to figure out why I do the things I do. Organizing continuously seems to be a way that I assure myself that everything is going well. If it's not, at least I can change it.
Do you have anything like that? Something that you do consistently and don't really understand why. Do you ever wonder if that is the thing holding you back from doing something more? Maybe not, maybe that's just me. But it's something to think about.