Last week turned out to be a heavy week for me, nothing tragic or anything really bad even happened, but there was a lot going on. It was a week full of "adulting."
I like that word, "adulting." It isn't actually a word. I know that, but it perfectly describes the tasks that require extra planning, meeting with people and often involves some sort of financial transaction.
Last week contained a lot of "adulting."
Like taxes. I know they are joked about being the only other responsibility besides being born and dying, but they are a headache. I try so hard to keep it all straight and make the numbers add up, but I end up asking the same questions I did when we went through this last year. At least that is done now.
My family and I also have a lot of big decisions coming up. We are considering moving, just across town, but it makes a big difference. There is a lot to consider, cost being only one of many. We are also contemplating homeschool for our daughter next year. This would be a big decision for our family because it would completely change how our daily lives function.
I never know how in depth to talk about things like this. It seems boring to hear another drone on about mundane decisions and circumstances. I don't even really know why I'm going on about it other than it is taking up pretty much all of my brain power these last couple of weeks.
Do you ever have this problem? Where upcoming events or something happening in your life uses up most of your creative inspiration. I keep trying to think of topics to write about, but my mind just goes blank.
I usually write this kind of stream of consciousness in my journal. That is my one place where I don't have to censor myself. I use my journal to understand my own mind and try to figure out what to do next.
It's nice to share too.
I didn't write or post for a couple days and I have to admit, I felt a little lost. Writing is something that helps me process the world around me. Being able to share these thoughts is one of the main reason I blog. It is nice to open yourself up and connect with others who share similar interests.
Connection is what we really want in life. We want to feel relevant, like a participant in the goings on of the world we live in. That thought was inspired by Neil deGrasse Tyson when he answered the question, "What is the most astounding fact?" for Time magazine.
The YouTube video with the overlay of Tyson's voice is amazing. It is complied with the song "To Build a Home" by the Cinematic Orchestra:
Tyson also says, "When I look up in the universe, I know I'm small but I'm also big. I'm big because I'm connected to the universe, and the universe is connected to me."
This is the kind of inspiration I seek out when I am having overwhelming days like what happened last week. I want to remember my purpose, why I do what I do and why I want so badly to connect. The secret is, we are all connected--to each other and to the world we live in.
When I can focus on that thought, that the universe is in me, I feel confident in my ability to make important life decisions and take care of "adulting" tasks. Though it still feels like it sometimes, I am no longer a child in my room playing house.
I am strong. I am confident. I am capable. I am loved. I am at peace.
That is also my desire for you.
You are strong. You are confident. You are capable. You are love. You are at peace.
Thank you for the opportunity to share my thoughts and remember my purpose. I'd love to hear what you think of Neil deGrasse Tyson's quotes, what helps you get through a tough week, or what inspires you to write and share. Have a wonderful week!